ABOUT
This is where my story starts:
Reno, Nevada 11.29.1966
Reno, Nevada 11.29.1966
MAYA ANGELOU
'You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops, Weakened by my soulful cries?
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.
Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and wide.'
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welcome 2me- I AM JOHN M. RINALDI. I was born into an Italian family of 5kids. .50% ITALIAN/ .25 SCOTCH/ .25 IRISH. ALL BEAUTIFUL. My Dad/MER was 19 + my mom/Krissy was 17. The year was 1961.
Kathy d. 04.19.97. (I'm sure Brooke will make that day about her too..fk her!) Danny d. 09.18,99. Kelly d. 07.23.16. 'my job had always been 2take care of Kelly. We spoke at least 3x a day and no one came before the other. No relationship, no one! June '16, Kelly, my babies, and I were all 2b at Disney 4the kids birthdays. Had we gone, Kelly would be alive today.. INJUSTICE KILLED MY BABY SISTER.
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Learning All That I Have
How Could I NOT Do,
ALL THAT I do?
How Could I NOT Do,
ALL THAT I do?
YOU CAN'T!
As a kid I fought off a demon at age 12, and sought solace any place I could- make believe.
I played some Risky Business with Tom Cruise and fell in love on a Blue Lagoon..
It was also the beginning of the end.
If you really want to go deeper, you can probably start with Steve Austin a.k.a. The Six Million Dollar Man, and the Bionic Woman. They were my first childhood favorites/ heroes... I also loved the Hardy Boys...
My Brother liked Star Wars.
My Sister loved Whitney.
My Mom loved Ricky Nelson.
Mine is Madonna!! Yeah!, I DO LOVE me mY MATERIAL GIRL!
(we'll get to Madonna, later!)
“As you get older it is harder to have heroes, but it is sort of necessary.”
―Ernest Hemingway.
in progress..
I played some Risky Business with Tom Cruise and fell in love on a Blue Lagoon..
- It's what I said.
- The truth is, I hadn't seen Blue Lagoon until I was about 17... nor did I see Risky Business until about '87 or so... So, when these idiots report that I sought refuge in the make believe, the truth is they were quoting 'me' AND not 'their' truths they would like you to believe.
It was also the beginning of the end.
If you really want to go deeper, you can probably start with Steve Austin a.k.a. The Six Million Dollar Man, and the Bionic Woman. They were my first childhood favorites/ heroes... I also loved the Hardy Boys...
My Brother liked Star Wars.
My Sister loved Whitney.
My Mom loved Ricky Nelson.
Mine is Madonna!! Yeah!, I DO LOVE me mY MATERIAL GIRL!
(we'll get to Madonna, later!)
“As you get older it is harder to have heroes, but it is sort of necessary.”
―Ernest Hemingway.
in progress..
We are defined by moments in our life- they shape us, mold us and direct us. They can also re-direct us and push us 'off-line.'
These 'life' lessons as it were are to be embraced if we are to thrive- 'embrace them and be the writer of your own story!'
However, one must differ it's deconstructive components. And to do this, one does need guidance- without it, we will fail.
We must seek, and if any luck find.
Children are too young to understand consequence and without reference default to a care-taker or someone viewed as an authority. The problem we see today is the lack thereof. Parents today are either too busy, or simply don't care and in turn we see the demise of our youth!
The other problem- me- people like me without any personal gain are embraced with suspect. And those we do not understand we perceive as a threat... AND PEOPLE LIE.
'There is no good DEED.'
In addition to listing some of my best days, I also list several horrors- unthinkable horrors that rob, steal, and kill human spirit. I'm here because a stranger's 'Act-of-Kindness' empowered this young boy. And since it had been the only kindness this boy ever had, it defined him.
Hope can come from many places... But, unfortunately trauma can rob us of hope. It can also be restored as easily as it is taken... by kindness.
one simple kindness can erase the most awful terror..
We are resilient, and we are powerful. Unfortunately, we are not taught and this too must be learned... imagine if we taught those we love life. Imagine if kids felt safe enough to speak of things not understood.
Imagine.. i do.......................................................................
Unfortunately, I am a nothing- a no-one in the scope of things. I hadn't sold a box-office billion or created some great invention. That said, unfortunately my 'wanting/needing' to protect our kids in ways I had not has deemed me a predator by one. I of course am not, and I don't care much about public opinion. I do however care about making a contribution and championing on behalf of those who struggle.
We all need a champion.
WE ALL NEED A JACK REACHER!
Fortunately, we've all know someone who lies, cheats, and steals to get what they want... such is my case- a liar, a cheat. And we read every day these celebrity antics that take place to stay relevant.
If i was a one time A-lister who was reduced to the Hallmark channel, I'd be angry too. For the record, a loving mother was blamed for that fall from grace. (not the fact that she testified in court to having had only one acting class..)
But on all accounts my life as I know it has ended.. and I'm saddened to think of all the kids who could've been helped/saved if only a fraction of what I've proposed came to fruition.
That said, one lie can destroy!' AND Kill.
Kelly Frances Rinaldi 01-31-1978 - 07-22-2016
These 'life' lessons as it were are to be embraced if we are to thrive- 'embrace them and be the writer of your own story!'
However, one must differ it's deconstructive components. And to do this, one does need guidance- without it, we will fail.
We must seek, and if any luck find.
Children are too young to understand consequence and without reference default to a care-taker or someone viewed as an authority. The problem we see today is the lack thereof. Parents today are either too busy, or simply don't care and in turn we see the demise of our youth!
The other problem- me- people like me without any personal gain are embraced with suspect. And those we do not understand we perceive as a threat... AND PEOPLE LIE.
'There is no good DEED.'
- 01.31.78 = Kelly
- 06.08.09 = Anthony
- 09.26.86 = 128
- 06.04.99 = Steve
- 04.19.97 = Kathy
- 09.18.99 = Danny
- 09.11.01 = Graham
- 12.14.12 = SandyHook
- 05.06.15 = Brooke
- 07.23.16 = Kelly.
In addition to listing some of my best days, I also list several horrors- unthinkable horrors that rob, steal, and kill human spirit. I'm here because a stranger's 'Act-of-Kindness' empowered this young boy. And since it had been the only kindness this boy ever had, it defined him.
Hope can come from many places... But, unfortunately trauma can rob us of hope. It can also be restored as easily as it is taken... by kindness.
one simple kindness can erase the most awful terror..
We are resilient, and we are powerful. Unfortunately, we are not taught and this too must be learned... imagine if we taught those we love life. Imagine if kids felt safe enough to speak of things not understood.
Imagine.. i do.......................................................................
Unfortunately, I am a nothing- a no-one in the scope of things. I hadn't sold a box-office billion or created some great invention. That said, unfortunately my 'wanting/needing' to protect our kids in ways I had not has deemed me a predator by one. I of course am not, and I don't care much about public opinion. I do however care about making a contribution and championing on behalf of those who struggle.
We all need a champion.
WE ALL NEED A JACK REACHER!
Fortunately, we've all know someone who lies, cheats, and steals to get what they want... such is my case- a liar, a cheat. And we read every day these celebrity antics that take place to stay relevant.
If i was a one time A-lister who was reduced to the Hallmark channel, I'd be angry too. For the record, a loving mother was blamed for that fall from grace. (not the fact that she testified in court to having had only one acting class..)
But on all accounts my life as I know it has ended.. and I'm saddened to think of all the kids who could've been helped/saved if only a fraction of what I've proposed came to fruition.
That said, one lie can destroy!' AND Kill.
Kelly Frances Rinaldi 01-31-1978 - 07-22-2016
in·teg·ri·ty
inˈteɡrədē/
noun
- 1.
the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.
"he is known to be a man of integrity"
synonyms:honesty, probity, rectitude, honor, good character, principle(s), ethics,morals, righteousness, morality, virtue, decency, fairness,scrupulousness, sincerity, truthfulness, trustworthiness
"I never doubted his integrity" - 2.
the state of being whole and undivided.
"upholding territorial integrity and national sovereignty"
synonyms:unity, unification, coherence, cohesion, togetherness, solidarity
"the integrity of the federation"
e·vil
ˈēvəl/
adjective
noun
ˈēvəl/
adjective
- 1.
profoundly immoral and malevolent.
"his evil deeds"
synonyms:wicked, bad, wrong, immoral, sinful, foul, vile, dishonorable, corrupt,iniquitous, depraved, reprobate, villainous, nefarious, vicious,malicious;
noun
- 1.
profound immorality, wickedness, and depravity, especially when regarded as a supernatural force.
"the world is stalked by relentless evil"
Dear Anthony,
I've lived my life with an open heart, and I hope you will do the same. Courage + Kindness, my boy. Courage + Kindness.
To live with an open heart is to remember that the essence of our true self is LOVE. We must forgive, heal and feel the depths of our emotions before we have the space to connect deeper and higher. This open heart space is where we reflect divine love and light for each other! – Andrea Keh
People will harm you- it's inevitable. The lesson for you to learn is that although you must always hold your head high, you must also embrace that in which does the harm. If you do not, you will wage battles, and ships will be sunk. Learn from me.. I've stood tall, and in doing so I've kept my integrity in tact. To what cost?
Had I embraced an assault and chose to walk away instead of fight... 'what then? 'what kind of life would I then have lived? Had I crumbled as they had wanted, I would no longer be me.. And I fought hell to become me. Had I honored their lies to be free... No! I could not commit a crime to evade what I know to be false. The man looking back at me in the mirror would not have been the same man who held you to his chest those first years... He wasn't the man who rocked you to sleep- the man who'd have waged any war to keep you safe... He'd be an imitation.
This is the lesson I want you to learn:
Live with kindness and courage and you will be the man you would be as if I was right by your side. In fact, I am and always will be by your side. I ask you to never forget.... always be proud, and always be more than what you were today.
I love you,
AJD.
I've lived my life with an open heart, and I hope you will do the same. Courage + Kindness, my boy. Courage + Kindness.
To live with an open heart is to remember that the essence of our true self is LOVE. We must forgive, heal and feel the depths of our emotions before we have the space to connect deeper and higher. This open heart space is where we reflect divine love and light for each other! – Andrea Keh
People will harm you- it's inevitable. The lesson for you to learn is that although you must always hold your head high, you must also embrace that in which does the harm. If you do not, you will wage battles, and ships will be sunk. Learn from me.. I've stood tall, and in doing so I've kept my integrity in tact. To what cost?
Had I embraced an assault and chose to walk away instead of fight... 'what then? 'what kind of life would I then have lived? Had I crumbled as they had wanted, I would no longer be me.. And I fought hell to become me. Had I honored their lies to be free... No! I could not commit a crime to evade what I know to be false. The man looking back at me in the mirror would not have been the same man who held you to his chest those first years... He wasn't the man who rocked you to sleep- the man who'd have waged any war to keep you safe... He'd be an imitation.
This is the lesson I want you to learn:
Live with kindness and courage and you will be the man you would be as if I was right by your side. In fact, I am and always will be by your side. I ask you to never forget.... always be proud, and always be more than what you were today.
I love you,
AJD.
