Letter to Jill Fritzo, publicist.

Hello Jill,


In order to be received in time to my 8:00 appointment tomorrow at the 6th precinct. I send this letter unfinished.


It's my deepest apology but I firmly state that this is an unfounded and unsupported claim to stop what, saying hello. Ask to help slaughtered children?? You are a celebrity yes. But, I do not now nor ever have wanted to know you. I've never read her tell all books which Brooke shared to the world she lost her virginity to Superman. I did buy the book (iTunes) in support, not to read because it's personal. (she gave me 2copies personally.)


Ms. Fritzo, I'm contacting you as an agent who represents Brooke Shields. It's not an intent to contact Brooke, but to work together as professionals. You are in charge of publicity, and this is my letter I'm posting to my web site that has over 1 million 200 thousand plus LIKES. It's my sole intent to resign from my philanthropic wishes to protect and to serve. To serve the public as a man dedicated to service and to protect those suffering who's voices otherwise would have been drowned out.


As I resign my post, and quit what I've dedicated the last 15 years to. This letter is to serve as the cover letter to www.TheSandyHookKidsCenter.com.


I'm accused of everything I try to prevent. Although I declare my innocence... It's with pain and anguish that I now have to live with. And if it's this much trouble to eradicate abuse/violence and I'm caught as a casualty then I fold.


I did not wish to know Brooke. I only thought she's be proud of the role she has played via her mom and that she would only then be to willing to help our nation's children.


36 years ago, I was raped by a neighbor 38 years my senior. To say the least it destroyed me... and I had become suicidal as a result. Myself like most all boys/the world for that matter became struck with a beautiful girl on a blue lagoon. A man had molested me, my fantasy saved me. I played some risky business and fell in love on a blue lagoon.


Tiger Beat, and the like talked a lot about movie stars and 'fan' stuff.. I too joined in and began to write fan letters. (they did solicit funding for a fee...) It was a nice surprise when letters were answered and autographs were sent. Like I said, not understanding rape I internalized it as a personal defect and the kindness I received in return was what had saved me. I began to share more and more and one unsuspecting night the phone rang. It was Teri Shields calling to speak to my folks to share things she knew I didn't have the courage to say out loud.


My life changed after that. The neighbor who raped me, was arrested, and I found the courage needed to heal.


Being grateful for having a person taking the time to help a stranger has heavily influenced the man I've become. I pay it forward in my career and every day in my personal life.

In 1996 I incorporated a children's non profit to eradicate abuse/violence and our long term goals are to educate kids and society alike on the gripping effects abuse has. The more someone knows, the less they internalize, the less they internalize the less victimization. In every sense of the word there is nothing selfish in anything I do.


Many, many years ago, I met Brooke, her mom Teri, and Teri's girlfriend/partner Lila at Nishi in NoHo where I was sat with the Shields' for dinner. It was a fun night to say the least. Mrs. Shields shared a lot with me that apparently she didn't with Brooke.
The parts of her recent memoir that she did share are very different than what she has written- like the relationship Teri had with whom Brooke thought was just her God-mother, and her seeking advice on how to best help me. Mrs. Shields was indeed our family's angel.


Many years after that I had met Chris Henche after a Broadway performance of Chicago. Chris then introduced me to Brooke. She was very kind and joked with me about spending too much on a baby gift for her daughter. Brooke even joked with me that she wasn't going to share the gift either, and that Rowan would have to get her own. Brooke also told me that she proudly kept it on her bedroom dresser. It was also then, that Brooke told me that she had no idea the extent to what her mother had done. It was then Brooke had told me it was all her mom and that Teri had been my pen pal all along.


As I grew up and became a man, I got rid of all my silly childhood keep sakes that included every cover and every story about Brooke. It was inappropriate to keep such stuff as my obsession had of course ended when I was still a child. Once Teri introduced me to Brooke she became a person and I've never ever disrespected her. On the contrary, everything I've done has been with great respect. The one thing I did save was a silver framed party favor Mrs. Shields had given me. That I proudly returned to Brooke thinking her kid would appreciate it. They- her effeminate assistant and Brooke did not.


That rudeness is why I've been overly considerate. For example, one night of an appearance on Broadway, I was so excited that I smiled ear to ear, nodding my head up and down... Brooke locked eyes with me and with my nodding, Brooke shook her head side to side. It was fun, Brooke shaking and my nodding. I even made an exorbitant pledge after the show to support her request which she, I believe, genuinely appreciated.


My sister died in '97 due to complications of her abuse. She kept her pain inside which led to eating disorders that eventually caused her heart to stop. I have incredible survivor's guilt seeing I too was abused and somehow I survived. My belief is that I survived because someone cared for that broken little boy. I was able to share my pain to someone who in turn went above and beyond what most strangers would not have done. With my gratitude, I pay it forward and according to 1 million 200 thousand plus people, people LIKE the work I'm doing on behalf of the victims of abuse/violence as well as the victims and survivors of SandyHook.


I've lived in the West Village since 1999. Brooke has only lived there for the past few years. In that time I've run into her 3 times and that's only because I work at the local Starbucks on her block, thrift at the local thrift shop on her block, check-in with the 6th precinct as I am a responsible neighbor and have even registered as a regular volunteer when needed. I also go to the pharmacy just two doors away.

3 times in a matter of years?????



If I was in any way inappropriate, the amount of our 'running into each other' would, I imagine, have been in the dozens seeing Brooke is often featured walking in the neighborhood. I do not take photographs and have only spoken to Brooke when there was something to say, like "I hope you don't mind that I parked in front on 10th". "But, it was the best/safe place." (they never ticket for street cleaning because of the neighboring 6th precinct.) I say this again out of respect because her husband Chris has told me to not worry about Brooke, that she is overly protective and private. How is that and why then do we all have to know that Superman took her virginity? Is it for income? Why then be rude after a hello?? I even have refrained the other couple of times from uttering a word because of how rude she is.


I did leave a note one time after she did an episode of TV where she played a has been celebrity who was rude to a fan oddly enough. The note I left provided a heart felt apology for her highly visible role in the world, that I apologized for the assumed unwanted attention she must receive and provided my information including social security, address, and license number. I did so because when she is in a show (Broadway) I would always try and see her. I didn't go to everything- which proves I am not deranged. I never went looking for her in SoHo where apparently she told a magazine she moved from and then featured her newly renovated 10th St brownstone on the cover of Architectural Digest. (no I don't have a copy!) nor do I drive by her South Hampton home even though I have a home in East Hampton and go to most social engagements.


I did not attend a luncheon for her book release and I did not go to an event she hosted in the Hampton's. I didn't go because her husband told me Brooke is very private and over-protective. That said I did see her in the Adams Family on Broadway and stayed after the show, much like many many people who stay for playbills to be signed. I asked- much like my consideration for parking, if she minded if I came back to see the show in two weeks because it was my birthday. She politely and kindly said it was fine and that she would appreciate it. I did go, and brought with me the same playbill from before. This time she didn't sign again as asked without the running joke of adding two x's, but this time wrote Happy Birthday. Brooke remembered that it was my birthday without my saying a word.


Last week, after asking if she minded my car out front- even after leaving a phone number on social media should she want the good spot... she politely said it was ok. That was what was said in front of her child, Rowan. Incidentally, my sister named her child Rowan after reading Brooke's book Down Came The Rain. My sister suffered from post pardum as well and was inspired as a result.


Isn't that what all of this is? Kelly was inspired and liked the name Rowan so much that she used it. I was inspired by an act of kindness from a stranger that I too have been inspired.


I do not wish to know Brooke. She gave me, well she gave copies to everyone in her AOL BUILD segment- an on line publicity forum.. I have not read it because I don't feel a need to know. Or maybe because she is now real to me, I wish to not know her private life! I even have a copy on my phone in iBook. But, that was to BUY it to SUPPORT.


Brooke is a familial soul from my childhood. A childhood lost because I was raped by a man at age 12. My entire childhood was stolen as a result. Brooke broke my heart with her lack of compassion and lack of empathy. Something deeply missed and lost when Brooke's mom Teri passed away. Teri was the nice one- the one with kindness. It's a sad day to have lost such inspiration.


In '96 I incorporated a 501 c3 non profit to eradicate abuse/violence. We've hosted luncheons with The March of Dimes to prevent premature births and have built homes for Habitat For Humanity. My reaching out to people I see on a regular basis had led to my being a guest of Celine Dion's and my asking her to record our theme song. I've spent a couple occasions with the Estefan's going with them in their vehicles to a show and then to dinner to celebrate Jon Secada. I even spent time with Shania Twain and going to a Billboard Show with her in her car. She even sang to me a song because I was the only friendly face she knew in the audience for rehearsals. Meryl Steep and I talked about hockey after she declared herself a hockey mom (while Sir Paul McCarney rehearsed..) and Madonna has even slapped me across my face at dinner after her asking me about a tattoo her brother told her about. She thought it was fan inspired. I then told her it was about what she's accomplished and how she inspires rather than it being about her. She then hugged me.


Ricky Martin kissed me on the cheek after meeting again after meeting him the day after Sandy Hook. We met a few months ago because we both have foundations for children.


Did I mention I even went out with Halle Berry a few times.. 'we both did a Who's The Boss spin off called Living Dolls. I stopped dating her/didn't call because I was just a featured actor and she was a star. I do not need to absorb anyone's anything! I even left a relationship where the person was worth $200m. My fantasies about wealth included a brief vision of my paying off Brooke's town house because it's said she's only worth an estimated $20m. (I left $200m.. to work for feee..) in a brief lapse of a split second fantasy (because wealth has never been an important e.) wasn't even about Brooke, but an anonymous gesture- a way to show thanks.


This entire ordeal is all about thanks actually. The only intention I've ever had has never been to know Brooke, to invade her life... Hell, one show of hers on Broadway she was on a couch just a few feet from the stage. I of course, was center stage and she stepped up and on top of the couch being silly trying to unfold the stubborn couch. Brooke's butt was right there in front of the entire audience just a few feet away.... I turned in horror as it was as if it were my actual sister! I was traumatized by her butt! Brooke was/is Brooke. I've mentioned my Brookie and was quoted saying my Brookie because there's a level of warmth. And honestly, I'm grateful to even be alive thanks to Brooke and her mom.


I've had this clowded image of Brooke seeing a signature scribble on my car and I come back to two x's as it is a running thing when she signs autographs. I didn't expect to have my car brushed off to the point of it appearing to be vandalized. (so yes, I went to social media- it's what you do- it's how you get followers)

I dated a brilliant person who has produced such great movies as Chicago, Footloose, who has even produced the Oscars a couple times... He had inspired me to begin writing a screen play surrounding my efforts and those around Sandy Hook to empower families for generations... I also have a best bud who created the ellen show, Bonnie Hunt, Latifah and has even introduced me to the brilliant Mark Burnett via a letter of recommendation...

I envision writing a treatment for a kids 101 daytime show. We're also submitting a reBuilding Sandy Hook show for a major DIY/family station... with a bud in charge of new programming for a major network and yet another for cable.


Incidentally, I'm also booked for a major talk show to re-appear..


My warped wish was that Brooke would somehow see the humanity in what I do and realize that my hopes and planning has taken longer than expected because I've yet for stars to align. Despite Sarah Jessica, Julianne Moore, or even Jessica Chastain's recent promise to do our non profit's first PSA. (Edie Falco had been generous to volunteer as well... she being the 6th person asked and 5th commitment. The 6th person- Kelly Clarkson hadn't been officially asked because Mr. Clive Davis who's been very generous to us to date was a better candidate to ask.


The only delusions I have is to actually believe one man can help where another man had damaged. I have no delusions of grandeur because I knew at age 12 my extreme fragility. There was a girl, Rebecca Shaefer who in all sense has shaped the stalking laws and in the article I published to publicly recant my defaming allegations, she was murdered just two days after my moving to LA just across the street. (I mention this because it had a profound effect.. it's an obvious deduction.. what's sick is how this passage was twisted by the prosecution...). I came to LA to act so I could be heard- that my story of abuse would help protect the 1 in 3, and the 1 in 5 'reported' cases.. 'that somehow I could prevent the pandemic of child suicide our nation faces. I'm not delusional and I've asked people who could actually do what I imagine. I've recently hired an operating officer because I know I do not have the experience needed to succeed.


Every day we lose at least 4 kids to abuse and violence. These age old statistics are the ones recorded. The thought of exact numbers keep me awake at night. The fact that I've had the inception since the early '90's and only incorporated since '96 evokes horror. 4 kids x 365 x 20 years represents the amount of kids who've lost their lives unnecessarily... To imagine all the lives cut short is not right.


Stalking legal definition:
'Criminal activity consisting of the repeated following and harassing of another person. Stalking is a distinctive form of criminal activity composed of a series of actions that taken individually might constitute legal behavior. For example, sending flowers, writing love notes, and waiting for someone outside her place of work are actions that, on their own, are not criminal. When these actions are """coupled with an intent""" to instill fear or injury, however, they may constitute a pattern of behavior that is illegal.

Though anti-stalking laws are gender neutral, most stalkers are men and most victims are women.
Stalking first attracted widespread public concern when a young actress named Rebecca Shaeffer, who was living in California, was shot to death by an obsessed fan who had stalked her for two years. The case drew extensive media coverage and revealed how widespread a problem stalking was to both celebrity and noncelebrity victims. Until the enactment of anti-stalking laws, police had little power to arrest someone who behaved in a threatening but legal way. Even when the suspect had followed his victim, sent her hate mail, or behaved in a threatening manner, the police were without legal recourse. Law enforcement could not take action until the suspect acted on his threats and assaulted or injured the victim.'

(why would someone quote this?? To prove that there was no intent- OBVIOUSLY..)


http://t.co/OwvnvKKAKO coupled w/""intent"" to instill fear or harm. just for clarification.
(again! No intent, no fear..)

Tomorrow, I'm being arrested on 4 charges of harassment and stalking. There's no evidence that can possibly be supported to support this charge.  (throughout the next two years, the prosecution would offer me a 'disorderly conduct.'  If I was as they say, to offer a disorderly conduct would be incredibly irresponsible especially when children are involved.  Which, they were not.  Brooke used them as pawns in her sociopathic ideations.)

(So they fabricated and distorted the facts..)

The 6th precinct in NY are acting out because they essentially had threatened me and that I refrain from any further activity involving Brooke, and that I not walk at all on 10th St.

(what kind of bs is that?? So, I again provided examples of how I'm of no threat)

(For the record) Stalking is a consistent repetition of behaviors to evoke fear or to harass- I would soon rather harm myself then to ever even disturb Brooke. The same article that declares me Brooke's 'Blue Luney' stated that Brooke ended a 15 year ordeal just two years ago involving a legitimate stalker or so they say.

This is obviously a result of the time Brooke was in fact proven to be stalked. I am not a stalker and this is defamation at its best.

As a result, I am now disinvited to my home.

My entire life has been dedicated to the betterment of others (there's no way any of these claims are true..)

Best,
John M. Rinaldi