Ramblings.

ONCE AGAIN, I FAILED.  

My plan is to never discourage anyone.  And I do wish to offer hope, but at this time I cannot.  I thought lies on line wouldn't necessarily define who anyone is- but clearly they do.  

I'm not saying to do anything you cannot recover from, but the life you've come to know depends what's told on line.  You will be forced to re-navigate.   What I'm saying is before you falsely believe there's hope- there's none.  Please don't lose precious time trying to reclaim what has been taken away.


We will be cleared soon enough.  And if not, then what?  What kind of life is there for anyone falsely accused?

Always live with INTEGRITY.  Always live with KINDNESS.   Always.
John.



BACKGROUND/ YET AGAIN

We left the acting world for a much preferred back seat.  Celebrity is an awful beast, but it's shimmer surrounds the ability to do good.  So, like many we chose life behind the camera.  

I at first did television, and then went on to film like many do.  I've had dinner with Madonna, breakfast at Kevin Costner's with his then wife Cindy in LaCanada, and had even talked hockey with Meryl Streep while watching Sr Paul McCartney rehearse at the Grammy's one year.  I saddled up to a bar in Malibu with Denzel celebrating Sugar Ray Leonard turning 40, and we still talk today.  Halle Berry had even given me her phone number and we became friends until I realized she was too important to be hanging around a kid with so many of his own dreams left still imagined.

​I don't covet celebrity.  I do not wish for celebrity.  I wish only to fight the many social injustices.   

Foolishly, I believed I had the tools to make a difference.  I was wrong.  They tell us all to use our voices, but when we do we are drowned out as mere noise.  

After a night out with Mathew Broderick he introduced me to an organization called Young Artsist United, in which I was all to quick to join, and my life hadn't been my own after that.  For the first time in my life my direction couldn't have been any clearer.   I became an advocate after that.  
 

​In 1993, I formed Child Hope, and in 1997 incorporated it into Kathy Rinaldi Hope after my late sister and the rest is history.

 
In 2015, Brooke had destroyed it all. 

Actually, to be perfectly honest,  Brooke hadn't wanted any harm to come to me, nor had she wanted any charges filed.  She just wanted her street to be her own without concern.  We had crossed paths several times, and the most notable was after her mother had died.  It was meant to be a good gesture, but she mistook a kindness as an intrusion.  Years ago  her mother had given me a gift and I thought she'd appreciate my re-gifting it back.  

It was a silver heart shaped frame of a 4year old Brooke.  My dad had also died in 2012, and all his gifts given were somehow more personally valuable to me.  I had no way of knowing that my gift was not an original, and Ms. Shields was not at all happy with it's safe return.  

​Yesterday- 5 March, my case was to be over-turn and I expected full exoneration.  I had full belief that the 3 years late justice would finally have been served, and I could resume my philanthropy.  
 


I first began philanthropy in the '90s, and if any one has a question of my legitimacy they need only look.  I do not work on behalf of myself, I work on behalf of those who's voice has been drowned out.

In 9/11, I lost a spouse on flight 175.    
In 1997, I lost my sister Kathy.
In 1999, I lost my baby brother from CTE complications.  

On 14 December 2012, knew precisely how the 26 families in Connecticut felt.

In 2016, I then lost my baby sister who was in crisis and whom I had neglected for a 5 April 2016 Newtown, CT town meeting.  

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The 5 March 2018 court date has been pushed back again to April.  



I don't know if anyone could come back from being called a predator, but I'd do have faith in myself that I'll be cleared.  

Years ago, Michael Ovitz sat me down to reconsider my giving up acting for non-profit, as had Donna Dixon and her husband Dan Akroyd.  Thankfully, they're support was also confirmation that I could make a difference.  


​When children are being slaughtered, who wouldn't offer immediate support to prevent it from happening again?

Julianne Moore did.
Sarah Jessica Parker did.
Jake Gyllenhaal did.
Liv Tyler did.
​as did many others..

Brooke did not.

Everyone mentioned met with me personally and had been followed up with their representatives.           -correspondences are available.


 
​Brooke filed a complaint.  

​You add a corrupt ADA, and we're here.  


Cy Vance's Angelica Gregory saw an opportunity.  On the surface, they saw an easy WIN until I shared with the office my 20 years of corroborating letters- including those from Newtown town official, Sandy Hook family, and mentorship support.  

They then offered a plea of disorderly conduct.  That alone is proof of zero wrong doing- you don't suggest child wrong-doing and then offer a slap on the wrist.  It's wrong and it's offensive.  Children are not pawns to be used to win a 'Bad Case'- ever...  

It's irresponsible and it sets a very dangerous precedent.  

I said no- which they didn't like. 

I told the judge that they could put me in jail for years before I'd ever sign a piece of paper that said I have no honor...     


You will find it quite ironic that the following graphic actually reads the last lines I had ever spoke. 

You cannot make this shit up.  Unless, I too was a sociopath.