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Ramblings.

21/6/2018

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ONCE AGAIN, I FAILED.  

My plan is to never discourage anyone.  And I do wish to offer hope, but at this time I cannot.  I thought lies on line wouldn't necessarily define who anyone is- but clearly they do.  

I'm not saying to do anything you cannot recover from, but the life you've come to know depends what's told on line.  You will be forced to re-navigate.   What I'm saying is before you falsely believe there's hope- there's none.  Please don't lose precious time trying to reclaim what has been taken away.


We will be cleared soon enough.  And if not, then what?  What kind of life is there for anyone falsely accused?

Always live with INTEGRITY.  Always live with KINDNESS.   Always.
John.



BACKGROUND/ YET AGAIN

We left the acting world for a much preferred back seat.  Celebrity is an awful beast, but it's shimmer surrounds the ability to do good.  So, like many we chose life behind the camera.  

I at first did television, and then went on to film like many do.  I've had dinner with Madonna, breakfast at Kevin Costner's with his then wife Cindy in LaCanada, and had even talked hockey with Meryl Streep while watching Sr Paul McCartney rehearse at the Grammy's one year.  I saddled up to a bar in Malibu with Denzel celebrating Sugar Ray Leonard turning 40, and we still talk today.  Halle Berry had even given me her phone number and we became friends until I realized she was too important to be hanging around a kid with so many of his own dreams left still imagined.

​I don't covet celebrity.  I do not wish for celebrity.  I wish only to fight the many social injustices.   

Foolishly, I believed I had the tools to make a difference.  I was wrong.  They tell us all to use our voices, but when we do we are drowned out as mere noise.  

After a night out with Mathew Broderick he introduced me to an organization called Young Artsist United, in which I was all to quick to join, and my life hadn't been my own after that.  For the first time in my life my direction couldn't have been any clearer.   I became an advocate after that.  
 

​In 1993, I formed Child Hope, and in 1997 incorporated it into Kathy Rinaldi Hope after my late sister and the rest is history.

 
In 2015, Brooke had destroyed it all. 

Actually, to be perfectly honest,  Brooke hadn't wanted any harm to come to me, nor had she wanted any charges filed.  She just wanted her street to be her own without concern.  We had crossed paths several times, and the most notable was after her mother had died.  It was meant to be a good gesture, but she mistook a kindness as an intrusion.  Years ago  her mother had given me a gift and I thought she'd appreciate my re-gifting it back.  

It was a silver heart shaped frame of a 4year old Brooke.  My dad had also died in 2012, and all his gifts given were somehow more personally valuable to me.  I had no way of knowing that my gift was not an 
original, and Ms. Shields was not at all happy with it's safe return.  

​Yesterday- 5 March, my case was to be over-turn and I expected full exoneration.  I had full belief that the 3 years late justice would finally have been served, and I could resume my philanthropy.  
 


I first began philanthropy in the '90s, and if any one has a question of my legitimacy they need only look.  I do not work on behalf of myself, I work on behalf of those who's voice has been drowned out.

In 9/11, I lost a spouse on flight 175.    
In 1997, I lost my sister Kathy.
In 1999, I lost my baby brother from CTE complications.  

On 14 December 2012, knew precisely how the 26 families in Connecticut felt.

In 2016, I then lost my baby sister who was in crisis and whom I had neglected for a 5 April 2016 Newtown, CT town meeting.  

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The 5 March 2018 court date has been pushed back again to April.  



I don't know if anyone could come back from being called a predator, but I'd do have faith in myself that I'll be cleared.  

Years ago, Michael Ovitz sat me down to reconsider my giving up acting for non-profit, as had Donna Dixon and her husband Dan Akroyd.  Thankfully, they're support was also confirmation that I could make a difference.  


​When children are being slaughtered, who wouldn't offer immediate support to prevent it from happening again?

Julianne Moore did.
Sarah Jessica Parker did.
Jake Gyllenhaal did.
Liv Tyler did.
​as did many others..

Brooke did not.

Everyone mentioned met with me personally and had been followed up with their representatives.           -correspondences are available.


 
​Brooke filed a complaint.  

​You add a corrupt ADA, and we're here.  



Cy Vance's Angelica Gregory saw an opportunity.  On the surface, they saw an easy WIN until I shared with the office my 20 years of corroborating letters- including those from Newtown town official, Sandy Hook family, and mentorship support.  

They then offered a plea of disorderly conduct.  That alone is proof of zero wrong doing- you don't suggest child wrong-doing and then offer a slap on the wrist.  It's wrong and it's offensive.  Children are not pawns to be used to win a 'Bad Case'- ever...  

It's irresponsible and it sets a very dangerous precedent.  

I said no- which they didn't like. 

I told the judge that they could put me in jail for years before I'd ever sign a piece of paper that said I have no honor...     


You will find it quite ironic that the following graphic actually reads the last lines I had ever spoke. 

You cannot make this shit up.  Unless, I too was a sociopath.
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A FEW GOOD MEN

21/6/2018

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These lines were lines that I read for Mr. Rob Reiner's

'A Few Good Men.'


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​I didn't get the part, but it was never about the role.  It was the position it would yield..


Through our efforts in Sandy Hook, I had reconnected with Mr. Reiner in NY, and we had discussed this very audition.  Once again it was in 2013, as I was working for Newtown.  We had even discussed a new project.  

He said he remembered me, but I don't think he did.. Despite it was the very audition that Michael Ovitz had booked for me.  


​Who do I think I am?  I'm a rape survivor- at age 12, and by priest at age 17.  I do the unthinkable because a long time ago Mrs. Shields protected a little boy and thanks to her my abuser was prosecuted.  The fact that I also had several heroes running the world didn't hurt.

   

All it takes to destroy 30 years of work is an opportunist ADA who defies justice for a BAD Win.  

​ADA Angelica Gregory Suborned Perjury. 




No one should lose their life from being bullied.  But, at the same what kind of life is there to live labeled a predator?


​District Attorneys have to swear an oath of the pursuit of justice before they take office.  But sadly even those sworn to protect are often seduced by power.

​Sadly, I have my own Harvey Weinstein in the Manhattan District Attorney's office.  
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June 20th, 2018

20/6/2018

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Suborn Perjury is a Crime.

20/6/2018

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Dear Sir, ,


I wanted to say hello and thank you- I won’t include an ask seeing that you’re probably inundated. But, I would like to mention that I too am Kalief Browder. In fact, I’ve been working with Kalief’s brother Akeem Browder to hold those who abuse power accountable.


My Back-pack (what Kalief Browder was accused of stealing) was a Sandy Hook invite to a Hallmark sponsored tree-trimming event. The invite was used to accuse me of harassment and when I wouldn’t perjure a plea, it was bumped to Stalking charge. I lost because ADA Anjelica Gregory Suborned Perjury. Upon my release, I filed a complaint with the NYSBar and informed her new employer of Ms. Gregory’s criminality and she was unemployed with a couple weeks.


We are now working with Governor Cuomo’s office to lessen the abuses by holding abusers of law enforcement accountable. To do this, we want to more influence given to Civilian Complaint Boards and less to Internal Affairs- the concern should be more about the victims, and less about covering up.


Thank You for your efforts in exposing the corruption within our prosecutors. If I can be of service, please don’t hesitate to ask.


I’m the Brooke Shields stalker falsely accused based on an opportunist Assistant District Attorney under the guise of a corrupt Cy Vance.


Ms. Gregory’s removal is finally our justice at a grave cost.


Best,
John M. Rinaldi.

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BRENNER CENTER for JUSTICE.

19/6/2018

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Our Constitution guarantees everyone a fair day in court. But the promise of evenhanded justice in America is increasingly at risk. In state courts, which hear 95 percent of all cases, judicial elections are awash in money. Nearly 90 percent of Americans believe that campaign cash affects courtroom decisions – and alarmingly, nearly half of state court judges believe the same. Outdated judicial conduct rules mean many judges regularly hear cases involving major campaign supporters. And neither state nor federal courts reflect the diversity of the communities they serve.

Courts have also been put on defense. The President has repeatedly questioned the authority and legitimacy of federal judges. And across the country, legislators have sought to curtail the independence and power of state courts.
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Through research, policy development, public education, and litigation, the Brennan Center promotes measures to protect judicial independence, achieve a diverse bench, and guard against political pressure and special interest influence on the courts.
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SUBORN PERJURY IS A CRIME.

17/6/2018

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I’ve been fighting a celebrity for over 3years now as we continue our work with Newtown, CT post The Sandy Hook School Elementary School Shooting.

Our mission is to build a CenTer to honor the lives senselessly stolen, support the heartbroken left behind, and bring about gun reform as we go!

We were told with the amount of corruption within Cy Vance’s DA office, we would never revieve an honest trial- which was true given ADA Anjelica Gregory Suborned Perjury when her ‘Stacking’ didn’t perjure a plea.

However, I recently had made a complaint to the NYS Bar, and contacted her new employer- Kirkland & Ellis, and within a month she was relieved of her position.

Ms. Anjelica Gregory is also off LinkedIn.

We need to address the corruption within the DA’s office and ask the sitting AG to hold Cy accountable for Vance’s ‘Pay For Play’ antics.

Lives are being destroyed based on abuses/corruption within both of the top to law enforcement agencies.

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Brent Ferguson Fraud on the Courts.

16/6/2018

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FRAUD ON THE COURTS.

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Fraud on the court occurs when the judicial machinery itself has been tainted, such as when an attorney, who is an officer of the court, is involved in the perpetration of a fraud or makes material misrepresentations to the court. Fraud upon the court makes void the orders and judgments of that court.

In Bulloch v. United States, 763 F.2d 1115, 1121 (10th Cir. 1985), the court stated "Fraud upon the court is fraud which is directed to the judicial machinery itself and is not fraud between the parties or fraudulent documents, false statements or perjury. ... It is where the court or a member is corrupted or influenced or influence is attempted or where the judge has not performed his judicial function --- thus where the impartial functions of the court have been directly corrupted."
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Rowan Sophia Frances Rinaldi
IS
MY
NIECE.

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HOW
IS
THIS
SENDING
A
SEXUALIZED
SHIRTLESS
PHOTO
?
(IDIOT)

Granted, Mr. Ferguson is attempting to do his job, but the District Attorney’s Office
MUST
STOP
COMMITTING
FRAUD
ON
THE
COURT.

We move to strike all charges, as Fraud on the Court Demands.

*** For the record, Brent Furgosun is 50x cuter than Brooke.

As per Ms. Shields’ paid for security, Gavin de Becker states in all of his 4 categories of Stalkers- (Weirdos) are based on romantic predilections, AND trust me I had none for Ms. Shields.

Chris Henchy was more my type. (40lbs ago.)

1200 people can attest that I prefer 6’ red headed Italians. And have been off the market since 4 June 1999.

https://https://www.brennancenter.org/expert/brent-ferguson
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www.brennancenter.org/expert/brent-ferguson


New York, N. Y. 10013 (212) 335-9000
CYRUS R. VANCE, JR. DISTRICT ATTORNEY
Honorable Leslie E. Stein Judge of the Court of Appeals New York Court of Appeals
20 Eagle Street
Albany, New York 12207-1095

May 30, 2018

Re: People v. John Rinaldi Docket No. 2015NY030419

Your Honor:
I am writing to oppose defendant’s application for leave to appeal to the Court of Appeals.
Defendant made constant attempts to contact actress Brooke Shields beginning in the 1980s, writing letters, making telephone calls, confronting Shields in person, and attending many of her Broadway shows. His ceaseless efforts led Shields’s security team to classify defendant as an “inappropriate pursuer” and direct Shields to report all of his contacts. The intensity of defendant’s efforts escalated between November 2013 and May 2015. On November 8, 2013, he delivered a box to Shields’s home on West 10th Street, in Manhattan, containing a teddy bear and two letters from his purported charity. Two weeks later, defendant waited outside Shields’s home with a framed picture of Shields as a young child and tried to hand it to her, telling her it was a gift for her daughter, Rowan. Shields quickly moved past defendant, and her employee later told defendant that it was inappropriate to approach Shields’s house or contact Shields or her family. Yet defendant returned to Shields’s home twice in the next few weeks, one time following her down the street as she rode away from him on a motor scooter driven by her assistant. A few months later, defendant approached Shields’s husband, Chris Henchy, on the sidewalk near their home. Defendant acknowledged that he had “spooked” Shields when he approached her; Henchy agreed and told defendant to “leave Brooke alone.”
In 2014, Shields continued to see defendant and his car near her home, and defendant also wrote to or about Shields on social media. For example, he used Twitter to send Shields a photo of a child, with the caption “my Rowan Sophia,” using the name of Shields’s daughter. In November 2014, defendant attended an event in which Shields was promoting a book she had authored; he sat in the front row and then used the question-and-answer session to give Shields a

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gift and speak at length to her without asking a question. He later wrote on his blog that he found it unnecessary to ask Shields a question because he saw her “al[l] the time in the neighborhood.”

Shields began to see defendant more often in her neighborhood, and she sometimes saw his car parked outside his house “for days at a time.” If Shields saw defendant while she was walking in her neighborhood with her daughters, she would avoid going home because she was fearful for their safety. On May 3, 2015, defendant parked outside Shields’s home and sent her a Twitter message telling her that he had believed she was out of town, but that she should tell him if she wanted the parking spot in front of her home. Defendant later recounted that he offered her the parking spot again the next day in person while Shields was with her daughter Rowan, but she declined.

On May 5, defendant was waiting in front of Shields’s home when she returned home with her trainer. Defendant later tweeted that he saw Shields coming home and that she should be nicer to him. The same day, Shields saw defendant’s car in the same spot in front of her home, this time with “Brooke” written in the dirt on his window in the same style as her signature. After her assistant wiped off the signature, defendant sent Shields a message on Twitter that said, “pls tell your faggy henchman 2not [sic] touch my car.” The same evening, Shields returned from an event with her assistant, and they saw defendant “rustling” around in the back seat of his car, which was still parked in front of her home. Her assistant approached the car to confront defendant, and defendant drove away. That night, Shields went to the police station to file a complaint.

The next morning, a police detective approached defendant, who was sleeping in his car near Shields’s home, to tell him to stay away from Shields, her family, and her house, and to cease writing to or about Shields on the internet. Defendant acknowledged the warning and was cooperative, but the detective saw him walk by Shields’s home later the same day. After that, the detective and another police officer approached defendant in a coffee shop and reiterated the warnings. Over the next ten days, defendant sent many online messages targeting Shields. He first posted online calling Shields a “bully” and referring to his Second Amendment rights. Later, he sent an e-mail to Shields’s publicist, saying he “never wanted to know” Shields, criticizing her “effeminate assistant,” and explaining that he decided not to attend some of Shields’s public events because of Henchy’s warning. The e-mail also discussed the murder of Rebecca Shaeffer, an actress who was killed by a stalker in the 1980s. Defendant was arrested on May 16, 2015.

Defendant was charged with two counts of fourth-degree stalking, one count of first-degree harassment, and one count of second-degree harassment. After a bench trial in the New York City Criminal Court, New York County (Kevin McGrath, J.), defendant was convicted of all four charges and sentenced to sixty days in jail. Defendant appealed, arguing principally that the evidence was insufficient to sustain his convictions and that the verdict was against the weight of the evidence. He also maintained that his e-mail and other online messages should not have been considered part of the proof of his guilt because they constituted speech protected by the First Amendment. The Appellate Term, First Department, unanimously affirmed the conviction, holding that “[a]mple evidence” proved “that defendant engaged in a course of conduct from November 2013 through May 2015 that was reasonably likely to cause reasonable fear of material harm to the physical health or safety of the complainant.” People v. Rinaldi, 59 Misc. 3d 137 (A)

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at * 1 (App. Term 1st Dep’t 2018). The Court found that based on all of defendant’s actions, including that he “followed [Shields] when she left her house; ignored numerous warnings by family, security and the police to stop contacting her . . . and sent her unwanted communications, including . . . an email to her publicist in which [he] referenced an actress that had been murdered by a stalker,” the trial “court could rationally infer that defendant’s conduct was designed to hound, frighten, intimidate and threaten.” Id. The Court added that “[d]efendant’s remaining arguments, to the extent preserved for appellate review,” were “unpersuasive.” Id. at *2.

In his leave letter, defendant contends that his actions were not “sufficiently connected or continuous to establish a course of conduct” necessary for a stalking or harassment conviction (Leave Letter at 9). In addition, defendant argues that the use of his “social media missives” to prove the charges violated his First Amendment rights (Leave Letter at 6). However, defendant’s First Amendment argument is unpreserved, and all of his claims lack merit.

To begin, as the Appellate Term found, the evidence amply proved that defendant engaged in a course of conduct designed to harass and intimidate Shields. In fact — as detailed in the People’s Appellate Term brief, and as summarized briefly above — defendant hounded Shields, both in person and online, over a period of 19 months. The trial judge soundly rejected defendant’s arguments that he had some sort of personal relationship with Shields, or that he failed to realize that is contacts were unwelcome, and that finding was supported by a wealth of evidence.
Indeed, as the Appellate Term found, “defendant repeatedly appeared at and lingered around Shields’ home,” Rinaldi, 59 Misc. 3d 137 (A) at * 1, for no legitimate purpose, intimidating Shields and placing her in fear. And, all the while, he stalked her on social media, posting aggressive and intimidating messages at times, and even accosted her at a publicity event. He claimed familiarity with Shields’s children, wrote her name in the dirt on the window of his car, and reminded her of his “Second Amendment” rights. Thus, contrary to defendant’s contention, this case does not present any credible argument that he engaged in “infrequent and temporally diffuse contact” that did not rise to the level of a “course of conduct” (Leave Letter at 9 (quotation marks omitted)).
Similarly, defendant is wrong to claim that he was punished for “expressing his views about Ms. Shields,” in violation of the First Amendment (id. at 7). At the outset, this claim is unpreserved and is therefore beyond this Court’s review power. See People v. Hawkins, 11 N.Y.3d 484, 491 (2008). While defense counsel made two passing references to “protected” speech when discussing evidence at trial, he never mentioned the First Amendment, and he certainly never moved to dismiss the charges on the ground that they were based on speech protected by the Constitution. Thus, his argument is not preserved for this Court’s review. See id. at 492 (“To preserve for this Court’s review a challenge to the legal sufficiency of a conviction, a defendant must move for a trial order of dismissal, and the argument must be specifically directed at the error being urged.”) (quotation marks omitted); People v. Baumann & Sons Buses, Inc., 6 N.Y.3d 404,

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408 (2006) (explaining that “a constitutional claim in the guise of an argument that the accusatory instrument is facially insufficient” must be preserved).1
Even if defendant’s claim were preserved, he is wrong to assert that this case presents a leave-worthy issue. Contrary to his claim, there is no threat that his conviction for stalking and harassment “will open the door to prosecution of a wide swath of speech about public figures” (Leave Letter at 8). Instead, had the First Amendment issue been argued below, it would have called for a straightforward application of People v. Shack, 86 N.Y.2d 529 (1995), in which this Court set the standard for as-applied challenges to harassment or stalking convictions involving some speech.

In Shack, the defendant was convicted of aggravated harassment after repeatedly making phone calls to his cousin, who had told him to stop calling. In response to his First Amendment challenge to the conviction, this Court noted that “[a]n individual’s right to communicate must be balanced against the recipient’s right ‘to be let alone’ in places in which the latter possesses a right of privacy,” noting that “the privacy right may ‘plainly outweigh’ the free speech rights of an intruder.” Id. at 536 (quoting F.C.C. v. Pacifica Found., 438 U.S. 726, 748 (1978)). This Court analogized the defendant’s calls to a person sending unwanted mail, noting that the First Amendment did not allow “communications to be foisted upon an unwilling recipient.” Id. at 536 (citing Rowan v. U.S. Post Office Dep’t, 397 U.S. 728, 736 (1970)). Finally, this Court explained that the defendant was not convicted “for engaging in protected speech; his liability arose from his harassing conduct, not from any expression entitled to constitutional protection.” Id. This was because the trial evidence showed that defendant called the victim “with the intent to harass, annoy, threaten or alarm her and that his calls were made with no legitimate communicative purpose.” Id. at 537.2

1 Contrary to defendant’s argument to the Appellate Term, his motion for a trial order of dismissal did not properly present the First Amendment question to the trial court. During his motion, defense counsel made an argument about the types of conduct that lacked a “legitimate purpose” under the stalking statute. He argued that criticism should qualify as a legitimate purpose, because “Americans are, after all, free to criticize one another,” citing People v. Bethea, 1 Misc. 3d 909 (A) (Crim. Ct. N.Y. County 2004), and People v. McDowd, 3 Misc. 3d 380 (Sup. Ct. Nassau County 2004) (Trial Tr. at 274-75). But critically, defendant confined his argument to the statutory definition of “legitimate purpose” and did not make a freestanding claim based on the First Amendment. Indeed, defendant did not even make any reference to the First Amendment (or the fact that Bethea and McDowd mention the First Amendment). Defense counsel’s discussion was thus insufficient to preserve his current appellate claim.

2 Since Shack, New York courts have consistently affirmed stalking and harassment convictions even if part of the criminal conduct at issue included speech or other expressive activity. In People v. Carboy, the defendant was convicted of stalking in part because he made t- shirts displaying degrading photographs of the victim accompanied by “derogatory, vulgar or suggestive comments.” 37 Misc.3d 83, 84 (App. Term 2d. Dept., 9th & 10th Jud. Dists. 2012). The Court rejected his First Amendment argument “because defendant’s criminal liability arose not from his expression of speech but from his repetitive trespass upon the complainant’s privacy.”

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Here, as in Shack, defendant’s convictions “arose from his harassing conduct, not from any expression entitled to constitutional protection.” 86 N.Y.2d at 536. Once again, defendant repeatedly stalked, harassed, and intimidated Shields, both in person and online, over an extended period of time. Defendant had no First Amendment right to bombard Shields with a steady stream of public and private messages — some of which included abusive language and veiled threats. Further, defendant’s effort to equate his messages with legitimate communication about public figures fails. His messages, which included references to his Second Amendment rights and an actress murdered by her stalker, were, like the communications in Shack, intended to harass a specific victim; they were not constitutionally protected speech important to the public discourse. Notably, too, defendant’s online posts about Shields were properly received as evidence for an independent reason: they demonstrated that defendant knew his contacts were unwelcome and added to Shields’s reasonable fear of harm. In that regard, defendant’s posts showed that he knew Shields had rejected him and his angry rants created a climate of fear. Thus, defendant’s various communications and posts were properly received in evidence, and no First Amendment issue is presented for this Court to review.3
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In sum, defendant’s current appellate claims are partially unpreserved, and, in any event, do not present leave-worthy issues. Therefore, defendant’s leave application should be denied.

cc: David Bernstein
Center for Appellate Litigation 120 Wall Street, 28th Floor New York, NY 10005

Respectfully,
Brent Ferguson
Assistant District Attorney (212) 335-
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Id. at 86; see also Dennis v. Napoli, 148 A.D.3d 446, 447 (1st Dept. 2017) (rejecting argument that comments concerning plaintiff’s sexual habits were constitutionally protected, because they “unnecessarily intrude[d] upon [plaintiff’s] right to privacy”); People v. Brown, 61 A.D.3d 1007, 1009 (3d Dept. 2009) (rejecting First Amendment challenge to stalking and harassment convictions based on phone call).
3 The stalking and harassment statutes at issue here contrast sharply with those that target “pure speech” rather than conduct that may contain a speech element. See People v. Marquan M., 24 N.Y.3d 1, 7 (2014) (cyberbullying statute swept up a “broad spectrum of speech”); People v. Golb, 23 N.Y.3d 455, 467 (2014) (second-degree aggravated harassment statute criminalized “any communication that ha[d] the intent to annoy”).



Official Complaint:
Anjelica Gregory, NY State Bar
Assistant District Attorney, City of New York
kirkland & Ellis Associate


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PROSECUTORIAL MISCONDUCT/
​ABUSE of POWER.


The information contained in this document and it's attachments shall be considered an official Complaint to the State Bar of New York, and provides unequivocal proof of gross prosecutorial misconduct and criminal acts committed by Anjelica Gregory, New York State Bar.

These violations include, but are not limited to the following:
  • Subornation of Perjury
  • Conspiracy
  • NY State Bar Rules of Professional Conduct
  • Fraud on the Court
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Rule 5-110 Performing the duty of a Member in Government Service
Rule 5-200 Trial Conduct
Rule 5-220 Suppression of Evidence
  • Violations of the New York State Bar Act
  • Violations of the American Bar Association, Professional Rules of Conduct.
  • Violations of Federal Civil Rights under Color of Law.

The State Bar is advised that this document is also provided to the New York State Grand Jury as supplemental information to the formal Public Corruption Complaint filed independently by a collaboration of Human Rights organizations, specifically naming Anjelica Gregory, NY State Bar #

The State Bar is distinctly advised that the prosecutorial misconducts and criminal acts of Ms. Anjelica Gregory detailed herein are not isolated incidents. They are part of a sustained pattern and course of misconduct, warrants criminal conviction, and necessitate permanent disbarment to protect the people of New York.

A substantial amount of supplemental documentation of this will further be provided to the State Bar, the New York State Grand Jury, the Center for Prosecutorial Integrity, and other Human Rights Organizations investigating Angelica Gregory, New York State Bar.

BACKGROUND AND SYNOPSIS

In 2005, Mr. Chris Henchy and I met after a Broadway play. After introducing myself to him, he grabbed me and said that I had to meet his wife, Brooke Shields personally. There had been a gift sent that she was so in love with that she had told me point blank, 1. It was too nice to share, and 2. It would remain on her bed-room bureau... I was very pleased because throughout my life I had developed a sense of gratitude to the Shields' after their stepping in and having my abuser prosecuted. Through Mrs. Shields' kindness, I was no longer a victim of abuse, but a survivor..

After many kind words were exchanged, I gave a friendly man to man friendly punch-to-the- shoulder and said my good-byes.

There was no further communication from 2005 aside from my attending 2 or 3 Broadway shows..

My father had died in November of 2012, and things that were once his became more valuable/sentimental to me. Roughly some time in 2014, I stumbled upon a gift Mrs. Teri Shields gave me personally out of the goodness of her heart. The loss of a parent is tough enough, but the loss of a grandparent is especially tragic because this relationship ends when the child is often quite too young and all they have are their young memories to hold on to. Since I was given such a kind gift of a heart shaped silver framed young Brooke, I felt obliged to return it to its rightful owner, Brooke with a comment that I thought her eldest daughter would appreciate it more that I. At the time it seemed to be the right thing to do- a 'paying it forward.' Brooke would later state in court that my gesture was a 'target-' which both the Ms. Shields and her attorney Assistant District Attorney Anjelica Gregory knew to be false. When all is said and done, I'd still repay the kindness- I'd still give it to her again. Brooke knows her children were never a target- she simply told the court what was needed to achieve the results wanted- me away no matter the cost. In this case, even if it was her committing perjury to do so.

And why not? Perjury is rarely enforceable.

In 2014, I received a mailing from Ms. Shields inviting me to several events to which she was to speak on behalf of a book she had published. During one event the mc was kind enough to ask if there were any questions in the audience, so I put my hand up. We spoke of my 'paying it forward' and attributed my philanthropic work to her mother who had been kind to a child a long time ago. Brooke then asked if there was a question, and I just said no. I had only wanted to say thank you. She moved on and before I knew it I had said, yeah I do have a question after-all.. but someone had already begun to speak, and Brooke smiled at me, and I smiled back.

The next event was several hours later at a book signing at Barnes and Noble- also personally invited through her social media. (If I was as they say, you'd think I would have been removed from her lists- I wasn't because I wasn't a threat.). While I joined the line to have my book signed, I didn't solicit a conversation, but when Brooke saw me, she quickly apologized for not getting to me to ask my question at the previous event.. She took it upon herself to engage me, I might add, and I did ask my question.

In just a few months later, I would run into Ms. Shields in my neighborhood. For the record, Ms. Shields moved within 2blocks of me.. and despite her living so close, I had only run into her a total of maybe 3 or 4 times over the course of many years. Again, if I was as they would you to think, I would have known about her living so close to me. But, I hadn't until they had publicized it. Also, Ms. Shields had stated that after the AOLBuild event in which I was invited to speak, it was only after that she seemed to see me with any regularity. This again proved that the only reason I was even on her radar was because I had just re-intorduced myself to her just a few months ago. Which proves my argument all along. I was a fan at age 14-16 when going through adolescents and having to hide my abuse sustained- I thought everyone who looked at me could see what my 38year old neighbor had done to me.. so, I had to front my fascination of Ms. Shields to be one-of-the-guys.

Again, if Ms. Shields is just a few doors down from my pharmacy that I've been loyally patronizing for over 20years, and a local Thrift store that I would visit several times a week... I'd think I would become somewhat a familiar staple. Yet, I wasn't- Ms. Shields wasn't a priority- in fact she was rarely thought of. Ms. Shields in her initial complaint had told the court that from 2003- 2012, I had sat in the front row of her shows some 10 times. This is another fabrication both known to Ms. Shields and Assistant District Attorney Anjelica Gregory. Through discovery, Ms. Shields listed events in which I had attended. She did not have any specifics from any shows- which again means it was compiled after the fact. Incidentally, you have to present a credit card with ID to pick up tickets. Ms. Shields willingly and with full knowledge filed a false police report.

The quantity and severity of the many criminal acts committed against me has been so expansive that it has drawn the attention of a number of Human Rights organizations, who for nearly 7 months have collaborated on a pro bono comprehensive investigation and have helped me file a formal public corruption complaint with the New York City County Grand Jury. Ms. Anjelica Gregory, State Bar # is one of the primary public officials identified in this corruption.

The evidence provided herein proves unequivocally that ADA Anjelica Gregory of the Manhattan DA's office violated her oath of office, abused public trust, and made a mockery of our judicial system in her relentless pursuit of a criminal conviction. Ms. Gregory is also on record for stating she would soon thereafter leave the District Attorney's office for her participation of putting 'away' innocent people.

Ms. Gregory is with no moral compass. She did in fact upgrade from her criminal activities to secure a position with a high profile law firm where the average take home bonus is upwards to $4,600,000 (according to company records.) I'd like to then add that I can understand her greed but the oath of a civil servant should be more respected as the honor and privilege is well established. I'd like to think that I too would sell out, but if I may be honest, no amount of money could buy 'my' integrity.

I'd like to also add that for close to two years, I was constantly asked/ begged to accept a disorderly conduct. With advise from Assemblyman O'Donnell, I was told to not accept any plea if I was innocent- which I was. He also warned me that as long as I was fighting a celebrity I would not win. But, at that point the only thing important to me was the lesson I would ultimately be instilling upon my little boy. and 'perjury wasn't one of them even if it meant my freedom.

Specifically, the facts and evidence herein establish:


  1. Ms. ADA Anjelica Gregory filed criminal charges on behalf of Ms. Brooke Shields even though insufficient probable cause existed.
  2. Ms. ADA Anjelica Gregory filed charges despite Ms. Shields' testified objection.

The assumption of criminal behavior was based on the discovery from an extortion/ consumer site called Rip Off Report. This site defamed me in its accusations of being a child predator and running an illegal non profit. In 2010, thanks to Detective Paul Arroyo, these reviews were proven false. Yet, they remained because reports can not be removed. The only option was to then pay a $5,000- $100,000 service fee to have the reports 'buried.'

  1. Ms. Anjelica Gregory then committed fraud to procure this deficiency by fabricating a false accusation of a crime (Ms. Shields made up a history of events that never took place, lied about situations, and even Ms. Shields' husband lied in court stating he had only one encounter with me despite documentation the prosecution released that clearly contradicted both Ms. Shields and her husband Chris Henchy.) to convince the judge that I should have reasonably known that Ms. Shields was fearful. All the while making up dots... a how to do to speak that was necessary to make a stalker out of a guy who's soul existence for the past 25 years was to eradicate abuse, and to stop the bullying- both I hold responsible for all the gun/school violence. Essentially, fabricate a skillfully crafted scenario to procure a wrongful conviction.
  2. Subsequent to fabricating her false accusations, Ms. Gregory had met with Ms. Shields dozens of times, as said in court, over the previous two years to create her testimony. The facts herein prove beyond any reasonable doubt that Ms. Gregory conspired with and coached Ms. Shields to elicit perjured testimony. They essentially re-wrote history which again contradicted a paid for security detailed 'Rinaldi' file. In addition, they trolled my social media accounts and created their own narratives. For example, someone had made a comment discrediting Ms. Shields and came to her defense on social media.


I could go on and on, but trust me when I say everything out of Ms Shields and Mr. Henchy's mouths were lies. To further prove (my claims) any and all my actions and activities were/ are transparent on-line connected with evidentiary proof of no wrong-doing throughout multiple on-line sources referenced in court by prosecution.


FACTS AND EVIDENCE.
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Gavin de Becker

15/6/2018

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The man’s an idiot!
‘just listen to his speech.

INTUITION?

He professes to have intuition, yet cannot discern who is and who is not my niece. Gavin also categorizes threats from 1-4 based on romantic craze.

Mr. de Becker should ask Halle Berry- whom I turned down after. Halle and I appeared in 3episodes of the short lived ‘Who’s The Bos’ spin-off, ‘Living Dolls.’

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While we cannot negate the need of a Mr. Gavin de Becker and his supposed precautions, but this is the service he provides.

#Misrepresentations.

1. If there was a police report of a stolen car with a gun, there’d be evidence.

To merely suggest a weapon is irresponsible. But, it’s a great way to manipulate. It’s a certain way to get the protections a hyper vigilant would require.

Gavin de Becker you are a fraud.

And as Gavin de Becker sees it, it was the advent of the age of celebrities as targets. Targets of lovesick men and women. Targets of fans with benign, mildly amusing delusions. Targets of crazed people intent on stalking and killing stars.
At 34, de Becker is himself a star in the field of celebrity protection, relied on by many of Hollywood's biggest names and other high-visibility figures.
Redford Among Clients
His clients past and present include Elizabeth Taylor, Richard Burton, Cher, Robert Redford, Dolly Parton, Jane Fonda, Joan Rivers, Victoria Principal, Brooke Shields, Olivia Newton-John, Tina Turner and John Travolta.

​But de Becker is not a bodyguard, nor does he simply provide that service. He does not wish to be even remotely identified with that trade, which he dismisses as work for rent-a-hulks and overweight, one-time rock 'n' roll roadies.
Instead, de Becker and his staff of 31 offer a unique refinement in the celebrity security business, using state-of-the-art computers and psychological profiling to help protect clients, some of whom pay as much as $475,000 a year for the peace of mind.
Glimpse Into Minds
His special approach also has allowed de Becker to obtain a rare glimpse into the troubled minds of the sometimes harmless but often twisted individuals who focus attention on themselves by sending "inappropriate" messages to his celebrity clients.
Along with the Secret Service and the Capitol Police, who guard members of Congress, Gavin de Becker Inc. of Los Angeles has the "best-kept centralized files of threatening communications in the country," said Dr. Park Dietz of Newport Beach, prosecution psychiatrist at the trial of John Hinckley, President Reagan's would-be assassin.
De Becker's business "is a counterpart of what we do in the FBI," to protect government figures, said agent Robert Ressler of the Behavioral Sciences Unit of the FBI Academy in Quantico, Va. "Unfortunately, we do not live in safe times. His type of business really fills a void. The government cannot protect everyone."
And former Los Angeles County Sheriff Peter Pitchess said: "Gavin is one of the best. . . . He has been very, very helpful to us (and) I have recommended him to many people."
De Becker will discuss cases but won't name names; a partial list of his 100-plus clients, most of whom live in California but some of whom are in New York, Washington and Nashville, the country music capital, was gleaned from other sources.
"Sinatra and Sylvester Stallone are not clients," he said, adding that almost every other top Hollywood star is.
To many, celebrities are magnets, and the crazed, some of whom have come to California from as far away as Saudi Arabia believing that they have been directed by a deity, have been undeterred by barbed wire or attack dogs. Some have taken telephone company jobs to gain access to unlisted numbers. They see special signs and signals for themselves in such everyday objects as license plates.
They have mailed de Becker's clients a dead coyote, dead fish, blood, hair, teeth, human and animal fecal matter and bullets.
Typically, though, they begin acting out fixations--some directed at Hollywood stars, others aimed at well-known corporate CEOs--by writing astonishing letters, in which they display obsessive love, hate or other threatening desires.




We have to ask why an ADA would Suborn Perjury- to become the actual criminal?

In 2015, Gavin de Becker represented Kirkland & Ellis’ managing partner Hamed Meshki.

Also in 2015, May 25, Gavin de Becker released a fraudulent report claiming stolen cars, and running guns & ammunition thwarted by local police.

I say where are the police records- surely this type of Bonnie & Clyde would’ve at least provided a head shot!
(I was unbelievably cute in 1994!)

in all seriousness, in 1984 I did take my dad’s car to New York’s Skineateles- where we do have a summer house. But, unfortunately no ‘Dirty Hairy’ Colt. Mikey- my dad did have a shot gun, but it was stored safely in the trunk complete with a locked hunting case.

THIS is the gross exaggeration to which I’m referring.

2weeks after my case commenced- without ANY defense I might add, Ms. Anjelica Gregory accepted a Kirkland & Ellis position with a starting salary of $290,000.

Ms. Gregory was relieved of her position after just a year.
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SUICIDE CONTAGION

9/6/2018

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​On June 2, 2018 I planned to take my life. It took me two years to finally get the strength and I planned it in a way to lessen the damage and provide support to the one most affected, and who inevitably would have found me. I say this selfishly, because suicide ideation has been rampant in my family and my mother often wishes for an early death. The loss of me inevitably lead to the loss of her.

You see we’ve already lost 3 out of 5...


I’d love to blame it on a hyper vigilant who at the time seemed to be acting responsibly. We had an altercation- her assistant damaged my car and I took to social media. The police got involved and by-passed Brooke Shields’ wishes of no charges nor harm which denigrates any alleged harassment. But, the fact that ADA Anjelica Gregory then Suborned Perjury to gain a faulty conviction, and both Mr. and Mrs. Henche lying in court.. I was done for.


In my opinion harassment is another form of rape, and I will not live as a labeled predator.


Sarah Jessica Parker, Jake Gyllenhaal, Liv Tyler, and heads of CAA, WB, NBC, + ABC, and the top publicists all know me, since 1991, to be a fighter of justice, fighting abuse, then with Celine Dion’s support added the fighting of childhood illnesses, and then we became a celebration of kids.


We lost a significant loved one on flight 175 on 9/11 and had I not been planning a move back home to Boston, I’d have been with Graham.


Our fighting abuses came to an abrupt end given one of many losses and devastation set in.
Kathy died in 1997 due to a life-long battle of childhood abuse. And when one child/sibling dies, it’s not uncommon for another to follow behind..
Gianni Versace also died in 1997, and he was not only a hero figure, but took me under his wing and introduced me to Bruce Webber.
Danny took his life in 1999 after his CTE symptoms grabbed too much a hold of him.


As I said, losing Graham was devastating and despite my being down at Ground Zero daily until I was asked to go home and take better care, I still felt beholden to NY/ the world for helping us through it and vowed to repay the kindness.


I knew Ann Curry from the gym and when I heard her ask the world to do an Act of Kindbess for Sandy Hook, I did one better.. I went to Newtown to do 26 Days of kindness.


The day of the shooting, I called a new friend, billionaire Bill Ackman and his wife Karen to help me build a CenTer. Within hours of the Elementary School Shooting I saw a similar story of a shooting of a Primary (Britain’s Elementary) school in Dunblane, Scotland. Soon after, Dunblane built the Dunblane Centre. Dunblane honored the lives stolen, supported the town, and encouraged the U.K. to change their gun laws within a year.


I told Bill, ‘It’s not about you, and it’s not about me- it’s about these little babies who lost their lives to senseless violence. Without a second thought, Bill Ackman- The Bill Ackman referred me to Mr. Paul Bernstein and we were a go.


Within an hour of my arrival to Newtown we had towne support, and I was offered the site that will now be Newtown Community Center.


The last time I ever saw my baby sister was April 2, 2016.. ‘the day I left her in crisis to make it to Connecticut to vote in the Center. The last time I saw her two babies that I was raising along side her was also April 2..


I’d love to say I’m the next Kalief Browder.. my backpack was a Hallmark sponsored invite to Sandy Hook commemorating the anniversary of the worst attack on our nation’s babies we’d ever seen. The intent was to send invites with a memorial rescue bear to secure friendship and support from some of my neighbors most recognizable super-heroes. Hugh Jackman (who I had worked out with), Sarah Jessica Parker (whom I’ve been parting with since 1991- and it’s Matthew Broderick’s fault that I went from Rob Reiner’s ‘A Few Good Men.’ to philanthropy. (and yes, I met with Tom Cruise sitting opposite him in his Desilu Bungalow... and yes, I’ve asked him to join Sandy Hook and Parkland families to ensure Gun Reform by Christmas!).


I said to Bill that it wasn’t about either me nor him, but the Manhattan DA would like us all to believe it’s about Brooke. Brooke did lie in court, but it was the ADA who coached her!


I’d love to say my 2June suicide was about prosecutorial corruption, but I have faith in Honorable Leslie E. Stein. My losing my baby sister has left me shattered. The fact that I’m now unemployable has made suicide the only way to die with dignity.


Suicide isn’t always about mental illness, it’s also about the indignities we bestow upon each other..


Akeem Browder and his June 5 fight in Albany helped me find purpose again.. and hopefully we’ll be taking on another fight of police abuse, and the real issue behind Kalief’s death is Riker’s Manufacturing Revenue that refuses to release innocents. I know this because they did the same to me. Shonda Rhymes had it correct in ABC’s ‘How To Get Away With Muder.’


Incidentally, I cut my teeth in the mail room at CAA, and have retained my relationships with several of ‘The Agent’s on 3.’ Mr. Fred Specktor introduced me to CAA Foundations Natalie Chan, and Ms. Viola Davis and I are expected to talk regarding the very subject her character addressed on Prime-Time.


June 2 I almost took my life.. for the last two years I’ve woke in the early hours by my heart racing, and most days I’m in bed because of anxiety. I missed my opportunity with my home empty because Akeem helped me realize that their is a greater power than myself and he again helped me realize,
“Life's most persistent and urgent question is- what are you doing 4others?" Dr. Martin Luther King.


Whether it’s a broken heart of losing your Greatest Love, (mine has always been my baby sister..) your job (my proposed and accepted Sandy Hook CenTer is now Newtown Community Center/ Old People’s Home, or you’re bullied/brutalized on live. (check, and check..) there is always Hope.


And if you cannot find hope, do what I’ve akeays done.. be of service. When you look past yourself to the greater good you will undoubtedly find a greater purpose and always joy.


RIP Katy Spade.
RIP Tony Bourdain.




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The Downward Spiral of Depression

4/6/2018

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The following excerpt is from a 42year old self-described depressive, traumatized as a survivor and as a result inflicted with PTSD.

I am all this but, I have no self loathing.

I was raped at age 12 by a neighbor, and assaulted again by a priest at Regis University in Denver when I was finally strong enough to ask for help..

However, there is no victim here!

I turned my horrific events into an opportunity to help a greater good. When you are able to be selfless you become almost grateful and incidentals become trivial.

I also would never give anyone that amount of power. It’s like an infected limb- you remove it before it spreads.. And you’re ok with the results, because it was your decision!

That said, by eliminating the emotion and unstable feelings, you can deduce whatever the situation into scientific terms.

You have an opportunity to help someone, but there is risk.

Do you?

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You have $50.
You put everything on Red +
the wheel spins Black.

You now have 0.

You spin again, and this time you bet your Bentley keys..
Everything on Red.
the wheel spins Black.

You knew the risks- whining about it isn’t going to get it back.. you still have 0.

You have to walk from A to B...
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May 5, 2015, Brooke in her hyper vigilance made a complaint for records purposes... which would appear to be responsible. But, Seegeant Blake- chest out, all tough... decided to go off and intimidate.

Fuck You!

He didn’t like the fact that he wasn’t listened to..

You don’t tell a guy that advocating for Gun Reform is harassment. No one would listen to a lunatic.

The reat is malicious prosecution!

So, for records purposes.

I left the roulette table with 0, and wouldn’t impose a ride..

I asked for dotections, but will not ask for a ride.

I made the bet.

There Red was so much to win.

I’ll walk until I cannot walk any further and be happy about it.



The Downward Spiral of Depression

The hardest thing for me to cope with as a person with depression is the downward spiral. It could be triggered by something big and life-changing or a series of small things. What begins the spiral is irrelevant. It is the feelings associated with the spiraling down that makes it so devastating.

The feelings of hopelessness and despair become overwhelming. Depression will strike out at all those weak spots, targeting them with a barrage of absolute negatives, reminding me I have no one and nothing will ever get better, nothing will ever work out. My rational side that usually fights to keep those feelings at bay is cast aside, nowhere to be found.

Mentally, I feel like I’m flailing, free-falling, with nothing to grab onto, nothing to catch myself on or to break my fall. The world feels like it is slipping through my fingers, though I keep desperately reaching out, hoping to find something, someone to cling to so I am not alone in this darkness. My head is spinning, dizzy from my spiraling fall down.

Again and again my brain will tell me of course this has happened and ask what else could I have expected. My mind is flooded with all I’ve gone through, all that’s gone wrong in my life. I try not to listen and to push all those feelings, thoughts and memories aside, but I feel like a failure, a loser, a waste of space. I feel guilty for burdening everyone with my problems and my mess of a life. I beat myself up terribly as I spiral downward because I can see nothing of value, nothing worth loving in myself. I have trouble understanding how anyone could love me, like me or even want me around. It is not a pity party. I honestly hate who I am as I spiral down.

The tears flow, and my body quakes. I try desperately to hold it in, to not make a sound. I don’t want to burden anyone else with my issues or my pain. My leg is bouncing a mile a minute as I desperately try to stave off a panic attack induced by these endless waves of hopelessness. I can’t even close my mouth because I’m shaking so badly that my teeth chatter when I do. I clench my eyes closed tightly to push out the tears as they continue to pour. When I open my eyes, I see the world through the blur of watery dots.
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Again and again I blow my nose. I have no idea how I make so much mucus. I am slumped over, wracked with sobs, clinging tightly to my blanket, wishing it was somebody, anybody, who could hold me back, hold me tightly, make these feelings go away. My entire body aches, not just from my sobbing but from how lost and alone I feel. My chest is tight like a weight has been placed there. I have trouble catching my breath in between sobs. I feel raw and full of despair.

Times like this honestly frighten me more than anything else. Though I am not currently suicidal, when I spiral down, that ledge comes clearly into view. It always seems to beckon me when I can see it, tempting me, promising me peace, a way out, a way for the pain to end. I can feel its presence in the back of my head, that little kernel, calling to me, promising its own sickly sweet release from my torment.

I have walked that ledge before. I have been tempted by its charms. I have listened to its siren song and wanted to give up, give in, be free. I can’t let it have me again, though. I can’t give up. I must stay strong. As much as I am tired, so very tired, of feeling this way, I need to keep fighting. I can never give in.

The hardest part of spiraling down is that desperate climb back up. Climbing away from the promise of a peaceful end back up into the viper’s den, back into the torment I call my life with depression. Digging in my fingers and my heels and climbing back up, telling myself lies that things will get better, trying to convince myself others need me and I have to hold on and be strong.

I feel like such a liar telling myself things will be better because the struggle feels like it never ends. Life is a series of numb days where I have trouble functioning and agonizing days where I spiral down and have to fight for my life to pull myself back up, peppered here and there with days that aren’t too bad but that I know are fleeting because I always end up back at one extreme or another. I desperately want to remain hopeful and believe in better days, better health, a better life, but this has always been all that I’ve ever known.

I’d love to tell you these agonizing, hopeless days are few and far in between, but I strive to tell the ugly truth about my struggles with mental illness, not spin beautiful fairy tales with happily ever afters. The truth is this is a regular occurrence when struggling with depression. Sometimes these feelings last hours, other times days. The spiral could appear once a week or again and again, for days on end. I never know what will trigger it, how long it will last or when it will rear its head again.

Eventually, I cry all I can cry, the agonizing pain throughout my body begins to turn into a dull ache and I find myself numb again as my mind and body shut down to recuperate.

Those who have never experienced depression assume we just feel sad sometimes, maybe cry a little more than average, that it’s something in our heads and we’re just not trying hard enough to be happy. I wish they could understand that depression is so much more than some extra tears. It is a constant fight with my own brain to not give up, not give in and continue living even though the world around me feels completely hopeless and not worth the effort. When my depression begins to spiral down, it is an agonizing, terrifying ordeal.
This blog originally appeared on Unlovable.
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If you need support right now, call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-

I am a 42-year-old mother of three. I have survived physical, mental, emotional and sexual abuse, a failed marriage and a long engagement imploded by my partner’s repeated infidelities. I have been diagnosed with major depression, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and anxiety disorder. I have many facets and have filled many roles. At different times in my life, I have been a student, a teacher, a mother, a daughter, a fiance, a wife, an artist and an author. Throughout my life, I have been both strong and courageous, weak and afraid. I may be a product of my experiences and choices, but I refuse to let them define me. After years of suffering in silence, I have found my voice. My first book, “Unlovable: A Story of Abuse and Depression from Someone Drowning in the Abyss,” is available for purchase in both paperback and e-book versions on Amazon.com and at barnesandnoble.com.
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